I am grateful for this city. I have been falling out of love with this city lately and really considering moving. But today from an office in a building on Wall street I saw the most gorgeous view of the east side highway swirling underneath the Brooklyn Bridge. It was amazing to see how beautiful this city can look from a distance. It reminds me that things can look a lot different from higher up!
I am grateful for the many realizations I have been having lately especially one that I experienced last night regarding rejection. I know that part of the reason why I have not followed my hearts desires is because I fear that I will be rejected, that I wont make it, that I wont be able to handle the success that I crave and fall flat on my face and fail to get up again. However, I realized yesterday that in fact I can and have handled rejection many, many times before in my life and that I am still here, still plugging away still taking in life supporting air. I have been texting with a guy that I have know for about 3 years WHO just never shows up, never follows through. We plan to get together and he cancels or just doesn’t call or whatever. Needless to say it is all very rejecting, I feel rejected when it happens, I question myself…am I pretty enough, thin enough, smart enough…blah blah blah. I am becoming very familiar with how I think when I am rejected. The even funnier point is that I know what I am going to get with this guy he behaves the same way every time we interact, I allow him to reject me, I practically run to him with open arms just to be rejected. I run to him and get rejected and yet I freeze when it comes time to take action towards my dreams because I fear rejection…..how does that make sense?
My point is that regardless of the feelings that come up…I HANDLE IT!!! Time and time again I handle the rejecting feelings and I move on. If I can do it with this guy then who says I cant apply that same resolve to my career, my dreams, my life? I can do it, I am stronger than I know. And because I am conscious, because I have started paying attention to the choices that I make every moment….the clarity of it all comes rushing at me and now I make changes, positive changes that serve me and the world.
